Ok, I sort of met this guy. For now we'll call him Dell.

He wasn't someone I would immediately be attracted to, and him being a Leo left me very unsure.

Yet when it all came together, we are by far more compatible than I would have ever imagine. He's not very handsome, but he has a nice smile and a please disposition (so far at least). He seems to know what he want and is man enough to say so. No beating around the bush or making same lame story up.

He has a job, nothing fancy but a job is a job. He's ambitious, smart and one of very few guys I can have an intellectual conversation with. He seems quiet and to himself, and wants more out of life than whatever's given to us by default.

Believe it or not, he didn't get creeper out when I said I never had a relationship with a guy before. Didn't hesitate when I mentioned my bisexuality. He said he doesn't want to rush me, and most of all sex wasn't apart of any of our conversations.

The more contemplate this and wonder. Can I really make it work with a Leo?? Even though I wasn't looking for him, could he have possibly been looking for me?? But even though all this seems and feels too good to be true, I must admit I'm hesitated and my heart is wary and uncertain. I want to, I want to see what it could be like. Yet my heart and my mind says, "Remember what happen last time??" Then there are those "things" that make me feel really inadequate. It makes be self conscious, lose what little confidence I do have and wonder if there's someone out there better than me for him. Then I say to myself, how I must be kidding myself...how is this going to work? There's also a few things about him that rub me the wrong way, but for some odd reason I've learned to get past them. Just like accepting he's a Leo...

I've heard a lot of people say ne wary of those who want to rush into things. But....what if this didn't feel like the others?? Where it doesn't feel like a scam or that there's a strong possibility that I might be taken advantage of?? What if this turns out to be the best thing that's ever happen to me??

Still, I'm reluctant and uneasy about all this. I said I was giving up after all and throwing in all the towels. Have I possibly spoken too soon?? Last time my Romeo didn't pick me to be Juliet; neither did my Ramona or her sidekick. It left me jaded and unhappy. Well there's only so much rejection one can take before you reach a breaking point. Yet my curiosity is peaked and I want to find out, I want to know what its like.

Trial and error is the way you make mistakes, learn some lessons, gain some wisdom and most importantly grow into a better, different and stronger person each day.

I think, I'll see what happens. Give him my number....maybe. Hmph, what's the worst that could happen?? Oh yeah, I can get attached and be rejected all over again. But I can't help but believe his words. No truer words have ever been spoken to me by a man.

I just hope that if I decide to take this leap of faith this time, my parachute opens up when he changes his mind about catching me.

So this crazy thing happened.

I'm pissed and driving after I find out Rita's is closed. While on my way to my next destination, tell me why this crazy female deer decides OH hey I can cross the street now even though there's a car coming.

This crazy bitch jumps out in front of me, so I'm like OH CRAP OH CRAP OH CRAP!! I'm trying to stop without slamming on the brakes, why this ho decide to run TOWARDS ME?! I'm like BITCH WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING?! I would've swerved if there's wasn't a car coming on the opposing traffic. So then she decides out of the blue OH MY GOODNESS THIS HUMAN IS ABOUT TO RUN ME OVER WITH HER HIPPIE VAN. Her punk ass ran behind this big old decorative boulder.

I'm pretty sure I had like 5 heart attacks and 2 strokes. That dumb broad playing in the street and shit.

The wild life is out to get me, I'm sure of it.

It seems in the recent years that every year my birthday comes I always, miss the time I was born.

I was born at 1:18 AM (a Wednesday to be exact) and I've always been honored my mama remembered what time I was born and if it was hot or cold and other tidbits. So ever since she told me I'd stayed up until 1:18am May 20 and end my day May 21 at 1:18am. It seems once I hit my 20s, I wait for it and then when I look back at the clock it's 2am like what the hell?!

It never fails. This year I was waiting and it was 1am and I was excited. Next time I looked at the clock it said 1:30.

Anyway, I can't say it was the best birthday or the worst. I spent most of the day beating the heat and napping here and there. I did get on the computer and spent time with ny Sim friends while I would pop in on facebook and thank one of the 30+ (out of 700) friends that gave me well wishes. I know what I want but since people don't want to participate I have to find something more affordable and less frustrating. Trust me not too many people are willing to throw a birthday bash for friends like you would do for them. Even the regular stuff I did it and it was ok, but I would like people to get the notion to wish me a Happy Birthdays and mess.

So my mama wants to do something som maybe after I take her to vote tomorrow we'll go to Eat-B-)Park and maybe have a day at Rita's or something.

In the mean time, I'm fin to get me a.chilli cheese dog abd then head home to see what's exciting going on on the Sims world.

It's was an ok birthday but I don't like getting older. For the most part, I'm looking forward to my thirties, hopefully they're a lot better than the 20s we're lol.