Wednesday, April 23, 2014

Kids Eat Free

Hey Guys & Dolls!! Tomorrow is take your kid to work day and Olive Garden is letting Kids Eat Free!! How awesome is that??? If you're interested in this deal print the coupon or click the link and go enjoy a wonderful day tomorrow!! This coupon is only valid 4/24/2014! So print it out while you can!

Sunday, April 20, 2014

Happy Easter & Sh*t!!

Hi Kids!!

I know I haven't been on much lately, but I miss the shit out of you guys & dolls!! Plus I've been worried about my Ukrainian love bugs too!! I hope you all are still safe and sound and I'll definitely keep you all in my thoughts and prayers.

I did want to wish all of you a Happy Easter!! I hope you all enjoy yourselves and keep it safe, happy, healthy and sexy *wink, wink* hehehe.

Anyway with my hectic schedule I'm still going to try to get more posts done. Thank goodness I only have 30 or so more days of this school bus nonsense. It's driving me bonkers! I went to go take my knowledge tests (there are 4 tests and it takes about an hour to go through them all) and I failed the first three because I missed so many questions. And a lot of those questions were shit I did not study for! I was mad as shit, but not as near as mad when I kept getting trick and fuckery questions. The 4th test, I passed but I only got a 72% I need an 80%. How corny is that??

Then to top it off I dented the hood of my car! I was going back to work, I went to drive a route that's long and difficult by myself so I knew where I was going. On my way back I decided instead of going the route way to go through my old neighborhood from college to get to work right? I get stuck behind this piano delivery truck who kept stopping abruptly the whole way. Well whilst on this bridge that's getting repaired and been dropped down to one lane outgoing/incoming traffic. He slams on his brakes and I do the same but because my tire went flat and I had the spare on, my spare tire didn't hold traction and I hit the haul hatch in the back. The best part he didn't feel it!! What type of shit is that?? But the whole time I thought I crashed in my whole front! Nope just dented the hood and honestly I can't worry about it because there's nothing I can do about it until I get the money to fix it you know?? Instead of dealing with the insurance about it, because I don't want to go through any flack from them, I might as well go to the dealership when I can to get it fixed. Oh but here's the best part--on my way to work this past spare tire goes flat. So since it was 5 in the morning, there was nothing I could do until everything opened up  which wouldn't be for another 4-5 hours. I called in and got attitude from the secretary whom I assume wanted me to drive that morning.  Then here I am busting my ass to get to work that afternoon, I had to walk and catch the bus and she says I don't have anything for you. Why the fuck didn't you say that this morning?? You know I was pissed right?? So I had to wait until Friday when I got paid to get my car fixed and I got the run around the entire time. Luckily when I was getting it towed yesterday (have to tell you more about that lol) the guy told me about a place closer to my home and I ended up getting all my tires checked, and got two new tires for $86 which is cheaper than the price for one tire. So the guy told me if I have a problem with any of the others, to come down and they'll help me out. Honestly I couldn't've been happier!

Besides fuckery with the kittens as usual and catching a minor cold, not only did I have an eventful week but I'm doing just fantastic as you can see lol. But I have tons to still tell you guys and dolls about. Maybe I can get a rambling in here and there over the next few weeks too :) Then hopefully I'll get summer break, like a serious break too! And I don't know about you guys but I'm tired of this shitty ass weather too. I'mma need Mother Nature to get her life together, because I can't take this 4 seasons in one day bullshit.

But I'll talk to you all later, now I'm going to fight at the Walmart to get what I need so I can cook and dye my easter eggs too lol. Have a good Holiday and Weekend everyone!

Sunday, April 13, 2014

An [Un]Missed Opportunity

So even though I have a job, I'm not too thrilled about it and it's not my favorite but I appreciate the money that comes with it actually. I just don't feel it's necessary to bust my ass like a slave and still get peanuts in the end. However I'm happy that someone finally gave me the chance I had been asking and wanting for years that I couldn't get because I wasn't good enough. This job lacks a lot of things I need, like benefits and job security.

In midst of all this I've been looking for extra work, one that provides me with the things that I need and hopefully I happen upon a job that gives me everything that I'm asking for and I'll be happy and well contented with that. What I've been doing is looking for jobs and applying to tons of places until I get something else. I already let them know I wasn't giving them a two weeks notice, if I find something I'm leaving. Unfortunately over the month or so I've been working at my job, I've applied to probably over 50 jobs or so. I've had two interviews and about 10 who claimed to be interested in me even though I don't think they really were. In addition to looking for jobs and applying to jobs that I see here and there, I get updates via email where they give me job postings of supposed "job openings" some are well over expired or lead to a bogus site, or claimed to have been filled months ago.

This morning while checking my email, I'm looking at the job postings email and I came across a few places that I applied for. Then I came across one that caught my eye. Fashion and Cosmetic Marketing Representative. For a moment I sat there in awe, because I was shocked, happy and feeling slighted someway.

When I was in college, and had to get ready to plan my life like an adult. Honestly I'll say I wasn't ready for it and probably wouldn't've been. But I knew it was something I had to do and that it needed to be done the right way. So in looking for jobs that not only fit my college major but would be beneficial as an entry level job. Unfortunately at the time Pittsburgh had little to nothing that suit my pursuit in finding a job that corresponded with my major. Which meant I had to look at jobs away from Pittsburgh, I found 3. Those three jobs were in New York, California and Florida. Three different jobs but three good jobs and great entry level jobs. As I spent more time planning this and getting this together, and talking with my Dad about it. I decided that I wanted to go to New York. Cali was too far and Florida had hurricanes. So my Dad said to choose the best opportunity, and if New York was it then go for it. So I start looking for housing in New York and decided to live in Forest Hills, Queens and I would commute to work in Manhattan until times got better. Then I also found a place in Soho and it was a lot of planning and the more time I put into this, the more I thought I'm going to be living in New York by myself. It was a scary thought but it was also so exciting. I couldn't wait until graduation and move to New York and work as a Fashion and Cosmetic Marketing Representative.

Unfortunately, my life took another route, but I still thought that I could move to New York and make it. It never worked out. Mind you this was 7 years ago. Now 7 years later, here I see my dream job and honestly deep down I want to take it, I want to apply. Then on the other side of the coin, I really don't want to. It defeats the purpose. I needed this opportunity years ago. When I think about it, and think if thinks had worked out where I could've gone to New York and made it work, my Dad would've still died, my mom wouldn't've wanted to move to New York and the cost would be too great and I'd probably be in an even unhappier situation. Or something unthinkable even!

Even though this opportunity was presented in front of me again, I don't think I'll take it. I already know I won't get it because I don't meet the qualifications they're looking for and then I have to wonder would I be happy doing something that I thought was cool at 20 years of age?? Probably not. A lot of things I wanted at 20 are things I no longer want and now have to consider what the fuck was I thinking??? Lol.

But you know what?? Call it a missed opportunity, I call it unmissed because if it can present itself to me again with everything I need then, that I don't need now. Then it really wasn't worth in the beginning. Besides why waste my time with people who are looking for perfection?? I rather work my 5 jobs and continue doing what I'm doing until I get something better, by my hard work and determination. Not by what school I went to, and what major I own. I've seen tons of college graduates who lack in everyday survival skills. I maybe a college drop out and considered irresponsible because I don't have a man or kids to tend to and piercings galore....but I know how to survive, even the worst of the worst.

Friday, April 11, 2014


For the longest I've tried to figure out why I have such a hard time dealing with females on a social and bonding level. No matter how much I analyzed the situation I could never figure it out. Regardless I would always try my best and build a feminine bond with other females and experience that group of women who's been best friends forever like in the Then & Now movie. Because it was embedded into me that that was by far the most important task that need to be completed, planted and given the upmost care to remain fruitful. But...I never got that and never got to experience it, probably never will. 

My job at the school bus company is one where everyone is basically friendly with each other. They greet everyone and there's smiles and laughter all the time. There are some that are loners like me and would rather not interact. But it's queer to be in a setting where everyone is happy and enjoys the people around them. 

For me that was very uncomfortable because I spent such a long time being unnoticed and not interacting with people who gave a damn that I'm used to being on my lonesome. I'm ok with that, others aren't—we move on. Not here. They make you participate and they don't sugarcoat or hold anything back. It's amazing actually. I began to enjoy this and felt more confident about interacting with people. 

But we all know good things must come to an end lol. 

Naturally I want to gravitate to the women and chit chat and giggle it up. Then I realized the more I did the more I got pushed into a corner. Not that I was unfamiliar with this corner but I don't like being put there because of someone else's mindset. This time instead of finding that femininely bond that women share with each other, I felt disgusted in a disappointed kind of way. 

It seemed the more time I spent with the women at work, the more and more I feel disconnected from them. I'm one of the few youngest workers, but I also think I'm the only one who has no relationship or children to dote over like everyone else. I thought one day I could alleviate that and talk to the people who might not have that....unfortunately they were men and they talked about their parents, siblings and nieces and nephews and other family members. 

It wasn't until the other day when I rode with two other women on their run that it finally hit me of how I felt with women. I felt emasculated. But wait a minute, is there such a thing for women?? Or is it so rare it's like a mythological sprite of some sort?? So I had to do some research but because it's so unheard of there's so many terms. I decided on the title because it described exactly how I felt. The run I mentioned above with the women, once I mentioned I was single. I was no longer allowed in the conversation unless it was about work. I always receive that treatment from women. Because I'm single and childless I'm not good enough for conversation. They make me feel uncomfortable. But I don't think it's fair to treat me like I'm not good enough to be a woman because I don't have kids or I'm not married or in a relationship or being a Susie Homemaker. Don't tell me I'm not a woman because I haven't done the same things you have or experienced the same the same things you have. I don't shun people who didn't have a father at home and I don't shun people who have siblings. 

But after the other day, I feel it's best if I keep my distance from women and just interact when I have to. I also refuse to allow another creature to tell me I'm not good enough when they're just as flawed or even more more so. 

And because of this last episode, it makes so much more sense why I never gotten along with women. Now the men at work I'm comfortable with and the conversation is conversation except for those who have kids or something equally entertaining like a girlfriend. But other than that I'm cool with them. 

Now I just have to learn to avoid women putting me in that Defeminized Corner because I don't hold the same values in life like they do. Or maybe honestly I need to move, not saying it can't happen there but it might not be as aggressive as it is here. 

Tuesday, April 8, 2014

Wednesday, April 2, 2014

New Entrees, New Ways to Taste the Lighter Side of Delicious!


Rain Puddles

Today we had a rainstorm this morning and usually I can't stand it when it rains. Especially if I have to go out in it. I even dislike it even more because my job has an all mud parking lot for the school buses so going through the rain and trying to avoid the drops, mud you're also trying to avoid the puddles. 

In most cases I would avoid the puddles. I don't like to be unnecessarily wet for no reason because it makes no sense. Not today. This morning everytime I approached a puddle I wanted to jump in like you do when you're a little kid. But I kept holding back because of what society says is appropriate and inappropriate. Then that made me think of how much society and rules regulate our lives and prevents us from missed opportunities. It prevents us from trying our best and experiencing something that could be so enlightening that we are left in awe. What baffles me the most is the fact that they constantly tell us as kids to go do what you want, nothing but yourself is an obstacle. But as soon as that child version of us wants to jump in the puddle because we feel it's right and we want to know the experience after that....Isn't there always someone else telling us not to because it's inappropriate, it's rude, you shouldn't be doing that. 

It's like I've had a ton of people telling me I can live my life within the four walls of my home. I understand that to a point. But if I say, fuck it—I'm fin to just leave the house, grab the kittens and move to Colorado I'm making a rash decision, it's inappropriate and if I can't make it work here why am I going elsewhere to fail. Then I have to wonder if I'm not prospering here and not getting the life that I'm suppose to be living as a 20-something filled with fun, happiness and excitement all around. Then wouldn't the next best thing to do is leave or go found out how to make that happen?? 

I think if I find another puddle today, tomorrow or Friday....I'm definitely gonna jump in it. 

Tuesday, April 1, 2014

Happy April Fools Day!!

Happy April Fools Day yawl!! 

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