Sunday, January 14, 2018

Monday, January 1, 2018

As The Carrot Turns


I have a confession....

When I’m at work.
In the elevator by myself. 

I twerk on the handrailing in it...

Just so people can touch my butt 



Should Old Acquaintance Be Forgot, And Auld Lang Syne


Sunday, December 31, 2017

Kwanzaa | Kuumba | Creativity


Creativity should be in everything we do. Not just community and businesses. I found myself where my relationships with people intimate or platonic was getting dull. And some even reach the point where what we used to do that was fun was old. When I was ready to try something new or add something else to our relationship, it was always a no. It wasn’t fun to them or it took them outside of their comfort zone and they didn’t like it. It was like if I wasn’t liking what they liked or doing what they wanted to do (even it being the same old thing) I was boring or acting brand new. That never was the case. I was trying to keep our friendship and add something to bring us closer. Not continue to add to the distance and stagnation that was happening. 

However some people aren’t going to have that kind of creativity. That’s the best they can do and sometimes we got to learn to accept that. Like my ex feels fun is going to the bar and having a stellar time with the bar veterans and eating bar food. While I don’t think it is. He feels I’m boring. I’m even boring when I don’t want to watch football. I’m especially wrong when I won’t do, think and act like he wants me to. However if I want to try something new he never wanted to. So we’re stuck in a stagnation. I feel it’s time to let it go and move on. He feels we should be together. Unfortunate as it is, this happens a lot. Friendships too. I think we as people need to be more open minded and explore new things. Come out of comfort zone and create memories. Enjoy the creative atmosphere around us and be able to marvel at the ways it’s added to our changes. Hopefully for the better. 

Saturday, December 30, 2017

Kwanzaa | Nia | Purpose


I feel some people force a purpose on others to satisfy what’s traditional and acceptable in today’s society. When I feel it’s not even that. Purpose is something we have to find on our own. Hell even I don’t even know what my purpose is. But my cats give me a purpose which makes me content. But I hate people telling me my purpose is to be a wife and cater to a man and have babies. My purpose is to love a broken man who doesn’t want to be loved. My purpose is to love and support people who don’t give a damn about me. My purpose is to do what everybody else wants without complaining. No. No that’s not my purpose. In my heart I know it’s wrong, it hurts and I damn sure don’t like it. Can’t be true then. 

I could never force someone to be something they’re not or don’t want to be. That’s like taking away apart of their individuality and hoping they don’t turn into a robotic copy. That ain’t happening. And what’s sad so many people want the world that way. 

I just hope in the years to come that I do find out what my purpose is or was or will be. And I hope that the rest of the world can be more open minded to the possibility of purposes owning individuality and not traditional attributes. 

Friday, December 29, 2017

Kwanzaa | Ujamaa | Cooperative Economics


I still believe in supporting black own businesses. Every so often I run across one who feels like I HAVE TO SUPPORT. Um no I don’t. I do it if I want. But you’re not going to force me to support you. But it’s rare case though. 

I just wish we had more backbone to support each other. Not even with business though. With everything. Friend gets a job good job I’m proud of you! Engagement or Marriage—congratulations you guys! New job, new baby, new car—hell even a new cup! GREAT, BEAUTIFUL! However I hated it when people are mad you don’t support them after they’ve force fed you their “moment.” 

I had plenty of friends have babies or get engaged/married this year. And continuously everyday they’re forcing it down their throat. And telling you how you could’ve been successful like them. No no honey. No one wants your man or his 6 other kids. No one wants to be the baby mama who got lucky. Sorry no. I never like boasting my success because I don’t want someone else feeling bad or doubting themselves. I don’t want that other person feeling like they’re in a race or they’ve got to catch up with me. Or be on my level. While everyone around me that’s my age became parents and husbands/wives by 25 or so. I became a homeowner, while also becoming an orphan in the process. So we all have different walks of life. Different paths. Whichever accomplishment we reach doesn’t mean there’s an expiration date on it. Or that we need to get there before anyone else. 

We should inspire each other and build one another up. Congratulate on the little accomplishments too! They matter and can sometimes mean the world to a person. Some of us are still trying to figure life out and may need that extra little bit of encouragement. That support can bring a lot of people out of the darkness and that means more than trying to keep up with the Jones’ 

Thursday, December 28, 2017

Kwanzaa | Ujima | Collective Work & Responsibility


What I Love most about Ujima is that last phrase....

“Make our brothers’ and sisters’ problems our problems and to solve them together.”

It means so much. Yet people disregard it everyday. I was always a firm believer and my parents enforced it that if someone had a problem and you care about that person it’s your problem to and to help them fix it. No matter the issue or how difficult it may seem—YOU HELP. Because you never know when someone else is going to help you. Which is true. However. Sometimes people take advantage of that help. And make it so where only their problem matters and yours don’t. No, no. If I can acknowledge and accept your problems you can do the same for mine. What I found out for this year. While I was willing to acknowledge and accept everyone else’s problems. No one was willing to do the same for me. They felt we’ll figure it out. Or unfortunately in my case I let them make it worst. And that’s not good at all. Moving forward, I plan to still do the same however only when it’s understood I have problems too. I might come off as too independent. And I’m ok with that! But my problems matter too! And if that person can’t even throw me a nod in understanding well I’m going to treat you how you treat me. 

With all that being said. Don’t let someone treat you like your problems are insolvable or not important enough or doesn’t stack up to theirs. That’s bullshit. Two, that’s ignorance and selfishness wrapped up in a terrible character. They need to get them a life if they think the world has to cater to them. No the hell it doesn’t buttercup. You matter too and never forget that. 
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